My girlfriend will be taking the Bar exam this October. Actually, it’s not the bar I’m worried about. It’s the whole process of preparing for it. This will be a big test on our relationship but more importantly a test of character for myself as a person. Recently, I feel like I only get the downside of being in a relationship. I feel as though I receive none of the benefits of having a girlfriend. All her time, energy, and positive vibes are being allocated on studying and all I get are the spares and negativity.
I have a gun and it’s locked, and loaded. All I have to do is pull the trigger and everything will be over. Of course, I can’t do that. I knew for a fact that this will happen. Cheating is not an option. I love that person. So no matter what kind of monster she may transform into, I’ll accept that no matter what. I just hope I have someone to talk to. That at least, I need right now.